Who invited the thunderstorm?

This week has been quiet.

Even though my camping trip was great, I have been a bit dysregulated.

Maybe more on that later, but everything is ok, as ok as it could be.

I have been working through some stuff and learning about some stuff relating to CPTSD, which I wish I knew about decades ago... but actually the info wasn't readily available and still is hard to find so.....

CPTSD is Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder.  It typically comes from child abuse and neglect, abandonment, and unstable homes. It can also happen from abusive relationships.

It is different than PTSD which is usually event-specific, while CPTSD is from an ongoing repeated traumatic circumstance. It affects brain development in early childhood. It also affects a person's nervous system. I think my entire biological family has it, even the ones who aren't actively mentally ill.

Anyhow I'm finding some answers to some things that I have never found clarity on, so it is a process and I'm a little close to sensitive things right now. This whole year- since November- one thing after another, emotionally speaking.  Is my emotional system going through a huge purge or something? 

Phew, it's a lot.

Maybe more on CPTSD later.

So I have been out-of-sorts a little bit.

There was a 103 Deck boat class tonight.

I did it last year but wanted a refresher, since deck boats are a little more involved than sit-on-top kayaks.

Well, someone invited a MASSIVE thunderstorm to class, so we did the whole thing on land.

New Jersey disappeared...again

Self-rescues in the water will happen on Friday.