Collective Hate

Human nature loves to vilify and condemn.  Take, for example (one of countless examples), Germanwings co-pilot Andreas Lubitz who crashed the plane killing himself and 149 others.  It's an awful, horrible act.  But I send love to and prayers for him as well as those who were killed and their loved ones.

There is immense negativity and hatred towards this man from the masses.  It is a form of Collective Hate, which I also term as Group Hate.  It is poison.

I refuse to participate in most forms of collective energetic focus- including politics, church, and any collective social groups with a unified belief system and/or agenda- these are all Tribes.  I do not join Tribes. I'm not necessarily opposed to them; some of them are helpful and beneficial and have their place- but I will not participate in them.  

My energy is mine to control and direct- adding it into a group collective with someone or something else controlling and directing that energy is, IMHO, a very bad idea.  It is the energetic equivalent to what happens with our tax dollars.  I have to pay taxes and can't really control where it goes, but I can choose where my thoughts and energy go.

Collective Hate is a very, very dangerous thing. It is invoked by the media and leaders of Tribes. It spreads rapidly and infects many, many people.  One of the worst things you can do to yourself is engage and contribute energetically to Group Hate.  It weakens and damages your energy and makes you very vulnerable in many ways.

I see people asking a lot in Reiki groups (and other places) how to protect themselves from negative energy. Shielding is important, however the best way to protect yourself is to radiate love and compassion.  When you make a choice to disengage from Group Hate and send love instead, it is not because you are saying the act is ok, rather you are protecting yourself and your energy.  It's the same concept as forgiveness.  When you do not participate in and generate negativity and hate, these negative energies cannot latch onto you.  You are not inviting them in.  They cannot become part of you.  They cannot poison you.

If you want to be Light, that's how to do it.  It starts in your thoughts, in the intentions of your thoughts towards others (and yourself!).  It continues in the words you speak and write. Then in your actions.  Be careful.  Go away from the mainstream collective. Guard your energy.

Own your energy. 

Spread love, not hate- even in the most challenging of situations.

This is what the practice of loving-kindness meditation is all about.

Furiouser and Furiouser

I don't get Really Angry often at all.  It takes a lot.  Sure, I get annoyed, irritated- but it passes quickly.  But Really Angry...smoldering simmering Real Deal Angry- that takes a lot.

And I am smoldering simmering angry.  It is a slow anger. It is moving slowly.  I am processing all of this very slowly. I will let this move through me and then I will release it and Move On.

I want to keep loving people- to stay soft- not have a hard heart.  That is a huge challenge when people repeatedly- intentionally- lie, betray, and take advantage.

Mistakes happen, we all have our issues, shortcomings, challenges, etc.  That is all fine. I will forgive or overlook a LOT.  But deliberate shadiness, broken promises, complete disregard and dishonesty- that is a whole different matter altogether.  I desperately want to have a different experience with someone, because I believe it must be possible even though life proves me wrong again and again.

I have to keep believing it is possible.

Because I don't want to lose my capacity to love and trust- which is never something I do lightly to begin with- so the only option is to keep trying and remember my Lessons Learned.

Actions say everything.  Words without corresponding actions are useless.  I know when someone doesn't really care, isn't interested, doesn't  value our relationship.  And yet I still keep trying, because I want it to work, because I care very deeply. And because I still keep hope, until I just cannot anymore. If people care they will act like it.  And if they don't, they won't.  And I don't need any more people that don't care.

I'm just trying so hard right now to not be downhearted, dispirited, and negative.  I'm trying so hard not to see people as one disappointment after another. Because it is true that I have some amazing friends, and I will focus on them.

And hope I meet someone else, some day, who is really capable of true integrity. Who truly values me as much as I would truly value them.  Someone who values loyalty.  It is a rare thing. I have to believe it exists.

I am so, so deeply tired.

*****
One of the Reiki principles states:

"Just for today I will not anger."

In general, that is good and solid.  It applies to a lot- minor life irritations, stupid people, your kids, work, situations out of your control, the state of the world in general, not taking things personally...however- sometimes Anger just needs to happen. It needs its space.  Repressing things is no good.  It will make you sick.  Sometimes you just have to let Anger flow through you.  Don't let it drive for you and take over, but let it be a passenger and honor it, allow it, if that is what it needs.  And it will run its course.

Sekhmet

Image by sanjayaisland

A Prayer

This is a prayer by Rev. Jim Cotter.  I found it in Caroline Myss's Anatomy of the Spirit.

It is so beautiful I had to turn it into a picture with the Reiki symbols.

Rev. Jim Cotter

For Julie

My awesome friend Julie asked me some questions in her comments.

Are you Wiccan, or have you studied the Wiccan ideas? My Mom and I went into a store one time and were truely intrigued by this. They told my mom she was a Crone (a wise, older woman), but my mom was familiar with the earths seasons, tides, moons. She was in a natural way, a Wiccan woman. It was an eye opening experience for her, and me too.
I am not Wiccan or any specific religion.  I love them all.  Yes I have been immersed in a few pagan religions, I know a lot about them.  I am nothing and everything, but at my core I'm a nice pagan girl.  :)  I also LOVE the Tao and Buddhism, Gnostic Christianity, the Talmud, the Koran, Sufism,  Rumi...all of it.  When you get to the center of the sphere, everything is one and it is bliss.

From Little Green Book
I like this very much. I want to start a notebook too. Is there any specific way to set one up?
Well, as far as Reiki goes, you use the Reiki symbols and send Reiki into it.  But you could have a prayer book or box where you write down people, things, etc that you want prayers/loving energy for. There isn't any right or wrong.

Lol! The time just keeps flying by, sadly. I have tried to write in a journal, and I just can't think of anything to write. Its weird. I need to read someone else's to see how its done...no lie!!!!
Silly Julie, you have been reading my journal for the past seven years!  And you have a rather nice one of your own!  Automatic writing is just stream of consciousness writing where you just write down your thoughts as you are having them.  It's generally pretty boring and incoherent but it is still a great thing to do if your mind is very noisy.

My Mom always said "You have 20 mins to cry, then get up and get busy"
Your mom was nicer than me.  I give Daya 2 minutes...and you know what?  It totally works.  There are, of course, hurts that need more time but I very firmly believe in expiration dates.  After a while you just have to move on and live life...call your spirit back....otherwise you just become a walking ghost which is very sad.

Do you have a Universal Unitarian Church near you? Have you ever been to one?
Yes and yes... I don't feel the need for community in my spiritual practice. I don't isolate it to certain times, or places- rather it is a constant thing.

I never saw you with red before, but can we call you Ariel anyway???? ;)
lol I have been called worse...I guess so!

Rumi

Little Green Book

Sometimes people make something called a Reiki Box, which is a box containing the reiki symbols and whatever prayers/intentions etc, all charged with reiki.

A modified version is a reiki notebook, which suits me much better.  My notebook is a little green Moleskine, not too much bigger than my phone.  I chose green because it is the color of the heart chakra, a good healing color.

In my little reiki notebook, there is lots of space for me to write whatever and whoever needs some energy.
It's like making hundreds of prayers all at once.  I send prayers and reiki to everything in my book every day.

There are people in my book I don't like, or have had difficulty with, etc.  It's good to send them good energy too, but they have their own Energetic Quarantine section.  Thankfully, it is a short list.

Little Green Book

Reiki Healing Codes

This is absolutely fascinating.

Need to save for reference.  I really want to explore this.

REIKI HEALING CODES LINK

Immobilizing Factors

Everyone has that one thing about them which immobilizes them from time to time, or more often.  It can be anything.  Fearfulness, anger- these are two common ones.  If you don't know what your Immobilizing Factor is, look at your go-to emotion or reaction to things.

Although I get scared and angry sometimes, like everyone else, neither of these predominates my emotions or character. It takes a lot for me to get really angry, and then it eventually works its way out and it's done with.   While there are things I fear- in general I will just walk right through fear. I have already been through a lot of Really Scary Shit and by comparison, well, most things just aren't that scary. Or I have reference points that are Much Worse and I got through those.  Or I know that what is on the other side of fear is absolutely worth it.   Or could be.

My immobilizing factor is sadness.  That is how I process things.  I hold too much sadness and one day it might take me down in one way or another,  I am so tired of life experiences turning into things to add to my Pile of Sadness.  I don't know how to change it.  I have already tried everything I know to do, and then some.

What is really ironic about this is that I know how to help others move beyond their own inner demons (If they want to). I can and will battle fear.  I can do energy healing. I can see patterns, and if allowed, I can assist.  I can feel others' pain in my hands and sometimes I can remove it from them. It took me a long time to understand the difference between my feelings and others' feelings- if something I felt was "mine" or not.

But I do not know how to drain my own well of sadness, which is all mine.  At this point I just want life experiences that don't add to it any more.

Sei He Ki

Because we all need Sei He Ki

To help us with this:

And Archangel Michael helps with this too.