Work Field Trip & Eye Stuff

I went into the office today for the AC and also because I am taking the skills 102 class at the boathouse in the evening.

I can see the embayment from the office.

Kedrin and I are work neighbors, so we met at lunch time to go on a work field trip at the American Indian Museum. (It's free.)

It is an 8 minute walk from the office.

It is a 2 minute walk from Kedrin's office.

I haven't been in here for years.

Mostly we just talked, only got yelled at once, and it was a fun time.

I did the 102 class but it was weirdly COLD so I didn't do my self-rescue.  Which is ok because I know I can do it in three different boats.  I'll do it later when the weather is warmer.

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So....... I think my right eye must be all over the place because people aren't talking to me when I speak to them. If they had situational awareness it wouldn't be an issue.  But I can't take being completely ignored and then get "are you talking to me?" It happened three times tonight despite me gesturing and using someone's name.

I'm really triggered, I guess.

I can't take it.

I'm going to have to patch at the boathouse, I think.

Choose your own bullshit.

I'm pretty upset, I have a lot of bad-treatment-history because of my eyes.

It's profoundly impacted my life, not in good ways.  

People are awful and I'm not in a mental space to handle it very well.

I know I look weird and I hate it.

People treat you very differently.

Kedrin found me a spiky eye patch which I'll have to use on the subway right after surgery.

I think when dealing with the public I'll have to patch and write something on the patch.