Heartwall

This post is just a bit of a Life Update.
I did start a painting tonight but it needs a lot of work before being ready to post.

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So, I'm a little weird.
If you know me you'd probably agree, but there is a lot of stuff I don't talk about.
Or even blog about, but it's more likely to end up here than in conversation with anyone.

I'm not going into the background of how this evolved, let's just leave it at one thing leads to another, but today was the 4th and last week of energy healing sessions I have had to clear my heartwall.

It is a modality called Emotion Code by Dr. Bradley Nelson.

I never heard of it until very recently, again, one thing leads to another.
And this blog is non-commercial, meaning I have no interest in promoting anyone, not even myself , since I don't promote or tell anyone about this blog.

But this is important to me personally and it was intense.

So, I had my heartwall cleared by a lady named Lee Mudro.
It took 4 1-hour sessions.

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I have therapied everything. 9 years of therapy.
Therapy is not what I need anymore.
It does nothing. I don't need to talk.
I run out of things to talk about. Quickly.
I'm past the point where individual therapy is useful because I already have clarity.
Therapy gives clarity but it doesn't necessarily clear the energy.

** I would do therapy with Daya in a heartbeat but she won't and it's her choice.

But.

Despite all the therapy there are things that I can't seem to shift.
Major life patterns.
It's an energy thing.

So I had my heartwall cleared and it was intense.

 I didn't know how it really worked until I went through it.
And... although I'm a believer in "alternate" modalities, I myself am always looking for validation to trust it. And it happened twice in very specific ways that Lee could never have known.

And honestly all of it made sense to me, and I agree with everything that came up to be cleared.
Nothing was a surprise. There were a few things that were interesting, but not surprising.

It takes three days for the energy to really clear, so it will all be really gone Sunday afternoon.
But I feel lighter.

I do need more work, I know my body is holding other things that need clearing.
So I will do that.

I need to move from survival to thrival.
That is my new theme.
My whole life I have been just trying to keep my head above water.

I want to shift into something better.