Today I ended up spending time with my friend Sharon. I am feeling better.
I wouldn't say I have a lot of friends but the ones I do have are very high quality people. Sharon in particular is a very high-quality person. She's just a... really good person. And she's a good parent.
Her daughter will be in 9th grade next year and she got into LaGuardia Dance! I'm so happy and excited for them!
Anyhow Sharon knew about the therapy session and that I was ok but just a little off and just processing.
So I went to her place in the afternoon and we talked for a long time. It gives me good perspective, especially from another (good) parent.
And Sharon is right when she ways I should not feel guilty, and that I have done everything I could have for the benefit of my child. She understands that visceral mom-feeling because that's also how she feels about her own daughter. I'm pretty normal as far as moms go.
It helps me to not judge myself by my teenager's standards.
We sat around and chatted for a while, then went to the Jamaica Dance Festival. Earl Mosley's company was in it and they were THE BEST ONES. (He's her modern teacher at Manhattan Youth Ballet)
It was fun and I felt a lot better afterwards. Not completely- this just has to move through me- but I do feel a lot better.
I am so glad you are feeling better. It is great that you have a friend that you can talk to. You are a wonderful Mom. Teenagers are the most difficult people.
ReplyDeleteIt does look like it was a nice day out at the Dance Festival.