They really were.
I'm feeling exhausted after orientation. Too much info and too many people.
The Art PA won't let me join them. Oh well I had to try. They did spend about 20 minutes specifically asking people to help and volunteer.... and I really am genuinely interested in what they do. Also, I know people. But I did get on their mailing list which is good because I want to go to the exhibits.
I wish I had actual art credentials. Even though my corporate job involves a lot of design work it isn't really considered an art career. Although my commercial art degree is well- suited for it and did specifically get me where I am. Art school did work out for me.
I would love to be a guest speaker for the art kids, they love having those and were asking if people know anyone. But I'm not sure what credentials I could offer to sound... I don't know, professional. "Local Painter who went to Pratt and knows a lot" probably won't work.
Feeling down about my art life is not useful or good. But I kind of do feel like that. Is the defining factor of your value as an artist really about it paying your bills? The statistic of people doing this is 1%.
My career pays for 100% all the rent and bills and also dance$$$ BY MYSELF, and lets me paint too, so why do I feel diminished? Was it because when the Art PA lady found out I don't paint for a living her face changed to disinterest? I guess even painters are nothing without credentials.
Well she was very interested in the canvases I have to donate.
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Daya has her locker. It is a bottom locker so she plans to switch it. She got stuffs for her locker and set it up today.
You should not feel diminished. That ArtPA will be sorry one day to have snubbed you.
ReplyDeleteDid they give you a map of the place? Geez I hope so. Glad Daya is settled and hope she gets a locker on the top row.
Do not feel diminished. Because you don’t paint for a living does not make you less an artist. You are the most 100% artist I know.?( trying to comment on the phone. Looks like it will work. Still can’t do it on the computer).
ReplyDeleteI agree 100% with Drusilla - painting for a living or having the "right" credentialing does not necessarily an artist make IMHO. I also totally get what you're feeling, not due to the credentials thing (I don't even have the credentials you do!), but in my case because since I've transitioned away from the whole tired marketing thing that just sucked the life out of me trying (unsuccessfully) to sell my works to now just painting for myself, I've been struggling with feelings of not being "enough" - I have been working on changing that unhelpful mindset though ;-). You are absolutely, without question, an artist - a real artist, and one I admire so very much. Please never forget that. Much love.
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