We aren't in touch otherwise, but I saw this post on her page:
"[Don’t be a good actress - a reminder to myself or anyone else who is not happy right now]
I can act my way through a bag when I’m trying to hide how hurt I am.
Do not do this.
It will prevent you from living your life to the full list and that includes feelings of sorrow. As painful as it may be to acknowledge the pain you are experiencing, you must allow yourself to feel it. Otherwise, it bundles up and burns inside. It makes the pain more painful. Getting things done become more difficult and the days seem to never end. That is what happens when you shove away your feelings.
There is a light. Even if it doesn’t feel like it right now, you will eventually feel better and be happy again. Don’t force it and be patient with yourself.
If you are going through a hard time during the holidays, message me or even call me. I’m here."
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Wow.
That is seriously- exactly where I am right now.
I actually did send Jenna a private message on Friday but didn't hear back.
Anyhow, this holiday season is hitting me seriously hard and it sucks and I have to get through it while still making it nice for Daya. She's really truly fine though- she's very happy to be on vacation and rest, and she was on the phone with her friends earlier. Me, I'm having a hard time with no people and no plans.
Tomorrow I asked Daya if she wants to go to the museum and she said yes, so we'll do that.
I also decided to take her to Midnight Mass. We aren't Catholic and she has never been, but I used to have to go sometimes as a child and if nothing else, it is very pretty and something to do.
I also got us reasonable but still good tickets for the Rockettes... if you go to a 10pm show the prices are much better. So we'll do that on the 26th.
Last year I was so happy to be on vacation, and I really enjoyed the holidays... and this year it is exactly the opposite. I can't wait to go back to work. It's lonely there too, especially since Nicole left, but it is preferable to being home on vacation right now. Isn't that weird to say?
I don't think it is weird at all. Some years are good some are bad. I can't be much support this year either. I am struggling with issues in our family right now. It is all too sad and it is making me sad. I am going through the motions though. I know this too will pass.
ReplyDeleteYour day out with Daya at the museum and seeing the Rockettes sounds like fun. I saw on tv that the Rockettes have a big new show this year. It should be fun. Midnight Mass is always a good one with music, incense. Get a shot of the spirit there.
Lisa I'm sending you all my best thoughts and prayers. Hugs. And thank you.
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