Which is a bit of a paradox because I have been meditating and in general being pretty connected spiritually. I have been making a very conscious effort to inject positive energy into my daily moments. I am trying to keep my energy from sinking. It is hard work.
Sometimes it works for a short time.
But my sadness is all my own. No one has done anything to cause it. Maybe I just have to hold it for a while, as uncomfortable as that is.
Sometimes it seems I am so close, and then life just slips through past me. I don't want to be awake most of the time. I do not understand the big picture.
"A lesson learned, a loving God, and things in their own time- in nothing more do I trust."
-Indigo Girls
Hey girl. Talk to your doctor...maybe counseling or medication is needed. I would talk to someone though. I have been there, and it is not fun. Reach out to your doctor...a good starting point. Love ya...Julie
ReplyDeleteOf course, speaking with a leader of your spiritual faith might be good too...rabbi, minister. Joining a church/synogogue, parish...maybe. Have a sort of family of friends within that sphere???
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