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Thursday, November 26, 2015

Another Thanksgiving

It is another Thanksgiving.

It is good that the country takes a day off to, in theory, have gratitude. It is a good holiday.

Mostly, I'm tired of holidays. I go through them and get through them.  The time between them seems to get shorter and shorter every year The commercialism drains them of their meaning.  Buy this, buy that! Now!  Black Friday is obnoxious. All this holiday commercialism is obnoxious.

So, Thanksgiving.  Yeah.
I'm thankful for all the obvious stuff.  Health, Daya is doing well, job. And I know these are all significant things.

But otherwise, it is just another day to get through.

I wonder a lot why some people have things, blessings, family, people, in their lives and others do not.
Though I suppose humans have wondered this through all ages in every culture.
There isn't really an answer for it.
It is a true life reality that we are not always taken care of, Needs are not met, and things just don't work out. There aren't answers. We can only change ourselves; never other people. We can never make other people want to be with us. And often that has absolutely nothing to do with us at all, it isn't something we can change in ourselves.

I wish I knew what it is that causes another person to want to be with someone else. What it is within a person that makes someone else want to be with them.
Not in a need-based parasitical way, or grudging obligation; I want to know what causes a person to want to be with someone else just because they want to.

Whatever it is, I don't think I have it.


  1. Happy Thanksgiving anyway. Peace...

  2. I don't think there's an answer to the question of WHY you want to be with someone. You just know it. You feel it.

  3. I don't have it either Jessica :'( ... that thought made me cry.... I often wonder the same thing. As for things I don't care, I guess more because of my age and how things mean nothing at all to me... yes I am grateful for my job (even though it drives me bonkers, especially lately) ... my family, a roof over my head... yadda, yadda... yet I feel alone because I never seem to be able to attain love, which is what I wanted more than anything else... Lately I am thinking I will just travel when the time comes to being alone.. xox

    Happy Thanksgiving


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