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Friday, April 21, 2017

Spring Things

Today is Friday and it is raining.  Again.
Spring is a bit of a tough time for me every year...I don't really know why, it's just how my cycles go I guess. Everything feels heavy and blah, kind of opposite of how it is supposed to feel.

Sometimes life catches up with me and I feel my circumstance of carrying everything alone to be crushing and overwhelming.  Rob asks what's wrong and I tell him, but it isn't something he can relate to.  He is present which is a wonderful thing, but there isn't really anything he can do. He has never had to worry about taking care of anyone other than himself, not even a pet.  There's nothing wrong with that, but it is a different mentality. I value his presence but it doesn't relieve the crushing weight.

I have new neighbors upstairs and on Fridays and weekends they like to BLAST their music so I get all the drums and all the bass.

I can't take it.  The super has talked to them (didn't help) and I wrote to the landlord.  Haven't heard anything back yet so I'm still wound up dreading the next wave of pounding bass.  My building is not the kind of building where people do this.  It is well-managed, a good building- and I really want it to stay that way.  Quality of life and preservation of the environment for everyone. When you live in a good building, you have to be a good tenant to keep the building good.  It's not the Bronx. And I'm paying a lot of rent.

I'm nuts about having a peaceful home environment.  I require sanctuary.
Obviously there is a normal amount of noise around to be expected and that's ok but I don't like my space to be infringed upon, nor would I do that to someone else.

Anyhow it stresses me. I can't seem to unwind from it.
I hate noise.

I can't find my Holbein palette knife and I strongly suspect- no, I KNOW- it is cat-related. Yesterday I looked for a long time in all the places it should have been, and some places it shouldn't.  Nothing.  My palette knife is my painting BFF and I miss it terribly.  I have a backup but it's not the same.

My friend Nancy had heart surgery on April 12th and no one has heard from her.
Neither of her phones are working, no response to email, her husband doesn't pick up. I called the gallery where she shows yesterday and they haven't heard anything but hopefully someone in OK will be able to find out more. In the meantime I tracked down her daughter and niece on Facebook and messaged them, but no response. Nance is elderly and physically very frail so I am worried.

All the trains are broken this morning exceot the 7 and the IRT lines, and it is probably only a matter of time until the 7 breaks.
I left home on time and got to work...there were problems during my commute but I got in before they got even worse.

Notify NYC 

Notification issued 4/21/17 at 9:17 AM. UPDATE: Due to a power outage, there are service changes and delays on the A,B,C,D,E,F, J,N, Q and R trains. The B train remains suspended between Brighton Beach and Beford Park Boulevard in both directions. The M train remains suspended between Chambers Street and Forest Hills in both directions.

Consider alternate routes and allow for additional travel time. For more information, please visit

Consider alternate routes?
MTA, all the routes are broken! The regular AND alternate ones!

1 comment:

  1. I so agree that no one that hasn't raised a child, especially alone, can imagine the angst. Hang in there. It will get better I promise.
    Big city problems. Noise, neighbors no trains. Bah...
    I wish you peace and sanctuary when you return home. Big hugs.


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