Today is Tuesday, another week is going by.
This evening I'm going to yoga for the first time in a year. I can't believe it has been a year.
I have made some changes- necessary changes- over the past few months and it is an adjustment. I derail easily, and I know that, and I know why, so I have to take it into consideration. Hopefully it will get better, but I need more time and it is ok. It's just something I have to keep in mind.
Sorting things out is difficult and sometimes I am not sure what's what.
The Fall schedule has got me with many long stretches of time by myself, several times a week. Evenings, days, Daya is at dance a lot and Rob is busy with school. I like being alone but it's getting to be a little bit too much, even for me. So I need to fill my time. So, yoga tonight.
Everything with Rob is still pretty new- it's only been about three months. I have no agenda, I don't know what we are, and at this point that's ok because it is still very new. There's a whole lot to like about Rob and I genuinely like having him around. He is good company, We get along. I like him for who he is as a person.
It is very nice to have a man in my life.
He wants to move out of the city though, Westchester. To me, that's far and requires driving which is not an option for me. So I don't know if I'm setting myself up for another loss and that makes me very sad. It really stinks that after this long stretch of alone-life that I would meet someone really great just to have them move away.
I don't know what to do, and maybe it's just something that needs to work itself out with time, one way or another. I don't have an agenda, I'm not the clingy type, I'm not into forcing things to be a certain way. But isn't the point of seeing someone to grow a connection? Especially someone you like and get along well with?
In this case, perhaps more time is needed. Since I don't know what to do, I'm going to do nothing and let things unfold however they will. I just wish I could stop feeling sad about it.