Carey says my blog is too sad and maybe she is right. But I am very sad so it is fitting.
I went out painting today in central park, up at the pool around 103rd street, away from all the tourists. Here is a little 6x8 I did in just over an hour.
The more I paint the more I realize that painting is really a test of how good one's focus is. I am glad I painted small because I only had about an hour of good focus in me today.
I forgot my rigger and my trees at still a little too fat (WHEN will I get over that) but for an hour's work I'm ok with the painting.
The Pool 6x8 oil on panel
I am still ridiculously sad about my cat. I still look down and expect to see a kitty, I have to remind myself I can't go and lug the cat to sit or sleep with me. I have to stop myself from calling out hello to the cat when I get home. It's too empty here.
So last weekend I started filling out applications to the cat rescues to get pre-approved so I can have a new hope cat pulled from the NYC Urgent Cats kill list. I sent my application to Anjellicle Cat rescue, and filled out the NYC Urgent Cats Pre-screener which is sent out to many rescues. A rescue, K9Kastle, contacted me immediately. I applied with them and was approved. I told them I was looking for a long-haired tortie, young, preferably between 1 and 3 years old who would be ok as a single cat. And...they have one!
I wasn't expecting to find a cat so soon. I go to see her on Sunday, and I'm 99% sure I will take her home.
It's bittersweet- I am so sad about Sigynn and I miss her so badly, but I am really excited to have found another kitty. I hope that having a cat around will lessen the sense of loss- I will miss Sigynn for a long time but it really will be wonderful to have a kitty around again.