topiary cats

topiary cats

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Heart-Sad

I was really hoping this wouldn't happen, but it did...I missed Daya's official first steps. :(

She took two steps this afternoon. Last night she sort-of took a half step, so I knew it would happen soon. I just really wanted to be there.

I hate hate hate that I have to leave her so much.

Perhaps this is why I have trouble connecting the mother thing in myself- because I know that I am mostly numb or buffered or something about having to leave her for most of the day every day. I dislike it very much, but I don't feel it most of the time. It would be so much worse if I did.

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